Then it hit me - being a composer was ruining my life.
- The initial idea of my pieces never seemed to make it through to performance.
- Each missed opportunity made me bitter & I wrote out of revenge. ("I'll show them.")
- Composing was making me unhappy.
The problem was that I still thought like a composer like in the shower or while taking a walk. Musical ideas would still pop into my head. After several years I realized I could quit "being a composer" but I couldn't quit "making up music."
Three things contributed to my starting again.
- I mastered the notation software Sibelius.
- I inherited Leslie's old laptop which was powerful enough to run Sibelius.
- I could write music on the laptop while drinking coffee at Starbucks - in fact, I enjoy all the distractions.
- Each piece would be 30 seconds (or so) long - one piece per visit.
- I would select the title when I save the file. Later the title would not change. Titles are often bits of overheard conversation.
- There's no intent for real people with acoustic instruments to play this music. Midi output is the final product.
- Once I leave Starbucks the piece is finished. On the next visit I (usually) begin a new piece.
In 2 years I've averaged one per week. Sometimes I go every day, sometimes I skip months. A few pieces have become 4 or 5 minutes in length. Sometimes I like it a lot. Sometimes I wonder why I bother.
Part of the reason for this blog is to see if people would listen. Here's the plan:
- I will post mp3s to a separate Earthlink webspace.
- Each will have its own linked blog posting here. You can search for the text "30 Second Spots" within the blog.
- There will be a limited number available at any one time.
- If you click an old link and get File Not Found, it's gone. Sorry.
- I might post them as I write them. Or maybe I'll put up old ones. Or maybe I'll be too busy to post any more.
30 Second Spots